The Void

Im sitting here thinking of what Im supposed to do next, my mind is exhausted and blank, so i thought I'll just pen down my thoughts. The morning has been hectic. Im looking forward to the break but the days that lead to the break are going to be crazy. The Australian currency has gone down. Just about the right time I was thinking but there are careful plans I'll have to make and tough decisions to take. The past 8 years Ive been telling myself I want to leave, but now that the time has come, I guess Im having second thoughts.

I haven't had the time to make the plans and decisions that Im supposed to make. Why am I working so hard; what exactly am I chasing after? Days go by without me seeing or talking to my family members. Tennis on sundays ensures I meet some of my cousins and of course the group that I meet up every weekend and my colleagues whom I dine and gym with on weekdays. This is my life and my parents have gotten used to me not being around or not attending family functions. It has come to a point that my aunts actually thank me for attending functions hosted by them!

My nephew has been enthusiastically waiting for my return at nights, my mom tells me, so yesterday I got home a little earlier (10pm), he was already in bed. I got him up and gave him the pirate set that I got him. He was so excited that got himself dressed in the items and started parading around the house. The little pleasure that Im able to bring in that little boy. Im gona miss all this.

I havent been following the finance news for the past week but Im aware we are hitting a recession. The letters Ive been receiving regarding my investments have nothing to be happy about. I guess the private sectors will see a sink in year end bonuses but as far as the Govt Sector is concerned, the drop will not seem very significant. On top of work I have my car to send for servicing (thanks to daddy dearest, he got that done), roadtax and insurance to renew, Im waiting for my agent to mail me the insurance offered by other companies, its not gona be any much different I suppose.....hmmm I think I need a PA!