What do I make out of this?!?

I was starring at an sms I received, very had trying to make sense of what the sender was driving at. That was one abrubt sms from someone I never thought I would hear from. I was clueless of what had prompted him to send it in the first place. First thought "what did I do this time". I got over the anger I initially felt and confuion set in. I have let him be in his new life, what else does he want? What does he know about hurt anyway and why would anyone curse someone they adore? This is total madness. I hate the shoes i am in right now. I dont have the freedom to cry nor stare blankly withought having to explain to someone what is running through my head. Just seconds ago my mom pops in and asks me what am I doing on the computer sitting in the dark. In my cousin's place I couldnt go by smsing withought subjecting myself to their sacarsms. I miss my Melbourne days where I could just shut myself in my room for days and cry my lungs out :P