I Think I Felt Pain

The day started out alright, with the absence of my hero, one kind soul who lives next to me offered to give me a life to school. I was activated for the temperature taking exercise, with my gloves, mask and the thermometer I headed to the classes, looked like a scene in ER. After invigilation I headed back, opened up my mails, many FYA emails from my P, received a call from the finance, "I was told by your office that you've instructed them to stop our payment?" "Yeah I did, maybe you should check with your service department why I had to do that? Payment will be done once your service is fulfiled" and blank went the phone...I bet she would have cursed & sweared.

My stomach started churning, I get this only when Im nervous....I was gng numb and losing my thoughts, wats happening? Im not gng for an interview nor a presentation, then why am I feeling this way? I sat with my hands on my heads and then I felt it.... The Pain, it not an heart attack....so this is it...ive felt it at last...u know how people say abt the matters of the heart? "Its Painful?" Yes thats it I felt THAT PAIN today....wow that was one hell of a pain i should say.....it happens I suppose when u miss someone like hell and u have so much inside u that wants to burst out....

The rest of the day went on fine, headed to the gym after work, my heart rate was fluctuating between 179 to 182 and I was doing cardio....am I alright? 120 crunches, machines for the thigs and arms and off we were to the steam room...our topic for today....we were dicussing abt a book and the different kinds of love depicted in the book....its very different....so what is real love? The author had a different stand to it....well before we got to that, the steam stopped and we were forced to leave after a 15 min wait....showered, had a healthy dinner of fruits & a miz of carrot & orange juice....that felt damn good!

As I entered the house, My dad asked me a question, got me thinking.....y ask after all these months.....