My cousin in online, he's in Sydney from now til the 2nd for work, I am so tempted to catch that flight and go up and meet him, Im dieing to meet someone from home....im checking on the flights now...but where do I stay, ahhh sunder is there, havent seen him for sometime as well, ok I shall give it a check, can meet up with Vik as well....hmmm tempting eh....
I havent started studying or preparing for my assignments, my brain wants to travel , shop, meet people and enjoy life...errr....Qualitative Methods and Evaluation for Management & Developement Vs Sydney, Cousin, Friends & Fun.....It all depends on the price of the tickets.....hehe
2 Hrs later....
After much thought, the former wins, I should start studying first and preparing for my essays, Ive been hearing horror stories of my lecturer. I should procastinate or take my chances, Im heading to uni soon. Well, I'll find something to do over the weekend :-)
Thursday, August 27, 2009
My Dear Little Friend
You caught my eye the moment you walked into the temple holding your daddy's hand,
Sitting on your mom's lap, you hugged her so tight and wouldnt let her go,
You had no clue that my eyes were glued for very long on you,
In your light blue pullover and dark blue denims you resembled him just so much,
Your cute little smile, pearly white teeth, dreamy eyes and thick jet hair,
Reminded me of my baby, a charismatic tall man in his thirties,
From a stranger you became my friend, from a friend he became my stranger,
I miss him so much and I want to hold him close so tight,
He doesnt have a clue and he doesnt want me in his life too,
Your little voice rings in my ears and images of you runs in my dream,
"Where's my toy pati" I heard you say, those few words crisp and clear,
I smiled at you and you stretched your hands out to me to play,
You looked at me by the corner of your eye, when I looked away to do my prayer,
You were upset and you cried when your mommy had another child in her arms,
I cried too when my honey walked out on me for another lady in his arms,
I hope to see you again on the 19th in Rockbanks this time,
Its the eve of my birthday and having to play with you,
would be the best present ever my dear little friend.....
Sitting on your mom's lap, you hugged her so tight and wouldnt let her go,
You had no clue that my eyes were glued for very long on you,
In your light blue pullover and dark blue denims you resembled him just so much,
Your cute little smile, pearly white teeth, dreamy eyes and thick jet hair,
Reminded me of my baby, a charismatic tall man in his thirties,
From a stranger you became my friend, from a friend he became my stranger,
I miss him so much and I want to hold him close so tight,
He doesnt have a clue and he doesnt want me in his life too,
Your little voice rings in my ears and images of you runs in my dream,
"Where's my toy pati" I heard you say, those few words crisp and clear,
I smiled at you and you stretched your hands out to me to play,
You looked at me by the corner of your eye, when I looked away to do my prayer,
You were upset and you cried when your mommy had another child in her arms,
I cried too when my honey walked out on me for another lady in his arms,
I hope to see you again on the 19th in Rockbanks this time,
Its the eve of my birthday and having to play with you,
would be the best present ever my dear little friend.....
Monday, August 24, 2009
Happiness Is.....
having that weekly chat on the phone with my family
hearing my little monkey say "I love u athay"
seeing the words "approm mike" and "miss you SB" from my cousins on FB
receiving "I love you" smses from my dearest loosu friend
getting "How are u, i miss your teaching" messages from my ex students
bringing fun and laughter into my friends' lives
praying for the well being of everyone around me
going for that run in the park
playing with the children who i meet in places
having a chat over a cup of coffee, glass of wine or mug of beer with friends
oggling at cute men in the trains and trams
catching a man stealing a glimse of me when I turn away
walking 20 mins to hang food on the gates of someone close to my heart
cossing paths with the man I love on the streets
nursing an injured friend and getting her back on her feet
above all is......
realising that i am loved and missed by many and
knowing that i bring happiness into the lives of the people around me :D
hearing my little monkey say "I love u athay"
seeing the words "approm mike" and "miss you SB" from my cousins on FB
receiving "I love you" smses from my dearest loosu friend
getting "How are u, i miss your teaching" messages from my ex students
bringing fun and laughter into my friends' lives
praying for the well being of everyone around me
going for that run in the park
playing with the children who i meet in places
having a chat over a cup of coffee, glass of wine or mug of beer with friends
oggling at cute men in the trains and trams
catching a man stealing a glimse of me when I turn away
walking 20 mins to hang food on the gates of someone close to my heart
cossing paths with the man I love on the streets
nursing an injured friend and getting her back on her feet
above all is......
realising that i am loved and missed by many and
knowing that i bring happiness into the lives of the people around me :D
Weekend Updates
Friday night dinner and coffee with Jay. We have been wanting to drink for weeks but somehow everytime we meet, we decide on coffee instead, oh no! Is this a sign of age catching up?!? Stayed over at her place and accompanied her for house viewing on Sat. I liked the one with the Tennis court nearby, she wouldnt play tennis but at least I can play with Ravin when he's here, well its up to jay, im not the one who is going to reside there, but i'll be a feature on and off in their residence!
Was mugged by a druggie while waiting for the train in New Market. Ive got a phobia now. They can be so irritating sometimes. Footy game at night. Tim is a coach and he was able to buy us tickets at a discounted price. He used to be a National Soccer Player, playing alongside Sundrum & Fandi, those were the days, how can anyone forget the famous Kallang Wave. So the game was between Richmond Tigers and Hawthorn Hawks. Hawks won, goes without saying, they are a better team anyway but the tigers had excellent passes. Learnt about the rules of the game from Craig, Tim and Daniel. St Kilda is leading with Geelong coming next.
Sunday, headed to sunshine temple for Mr Vinnie's Bday. the procedure took forever. It was very different from S'pore temples. back home they never do archanai after 12nn. We were there for about 4 hrs. The food was good, typical Singaporean style. Brought back some prasatham to be given away. Headed to Bamah's after that, watched a tamil movie, had mutton curry with beans and eggs and then the 3 of us, Pushpa, jay and myself headed back. Am at Jay's now, poor girl had a fall and wanted me to accompany her home. Will be heading home later. I didnt call home yeaterday, i miss all of them loads, have to call later. Soleiman is online, updates from his end. Alright, i can hear Raneta and Jay having a conversation downstairs, i shall go and join them! Ta for now!
Was mugged by a druggie while waiting for the train in New Market. Ive got a phobia now. They can be so irritating sometimes. Footy game at night. Tim is a coach and he was able to buy us tickets at a discounted price. He used to be a National Soccer Player, playing alongside Sundrum & Fandi, those were the days, how can anyone forget the famous Kallang Wave. So the game was between Richmond Tigers and Hawthorn Hawks. Hawks won, goes without saying, they are a better team anyway but the tigers had excellent passes. Learnt about the rules of the game from Craig, Tim and Daniel. St Kilda is leading with Geelong coming next.
Sunday, headed to sunshine temple for Mr Vinnie's Bday. the procedure took forever. It was very different from S'pore temples. back home they never do archanai after 12nn. We were there for about 4 hrs. The food was good, typical Singaporean style. Brought back some prasatham to be given away. Headed to Bamah's after that, watched a tamil movie, had mutton curry with beans and eggs and then the 3 of us, Pushpa, jay and myself headed back. Am at Jay's now, poor girl had a fall and wanted me to accompany her home. Will be heading home later. I didnt call home yeaterday, i miss all of them loads, have to call later. Soleiman is online, updates from his end. Alright, i can hear Raneta and Jay having a conversation downstairs, i shall go and join them! Ta for now!
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Life Is A Game.....Play It
Thinking back, I realise Ive been very blessed in my life, great friends, doting family, had a well paid job, loved and missed by many. What else could I ask for right. yeah I do get lonely sometimes in the absence of a man, but I had heaps of friends who were always keeping me on my feet.
I want be the happy person full of zest that I used to be. Jaisri says Im a clown, well not many have seen this side of me. Heading for a footy match later with 9 others, well just for the experience. Tomorrow is Mr Vinnie's bday so heading to temple, yeah im going to temple, well im a changed person you know. Bought a tennis racket, now got to find someone to play with. Have to start my exercises soon, probably take up the uni membership or maybe start running at Fawkner Park.
Have decided to make certain chnages in my life. Im my normal self when Im around people. Guna and I used to dance while doing housework. Jaisri and I have our girlie sessions every week talking about anything under the sun.
Shona & Vishesh are fun people to be around with. They are my housemates. We went to temple during Krishna Jayanthi. The ambience was spine shivering and we were lucky! We were stopped when they were moving the idols and i was right in front and got first hand view. The bhajans were good, I miss the bhajans I used to attend back home.
On the whole im happy with my life. Well Im sitting here with my savings, basically taking a break from work and having the luxury of time while others are w orking their heads off. There are many out there who envy the guts I had to drop everything and make the move. Not a perfect life but Im better off than so many other people I know. Im strong and I know I can do it! Thats the spirit girl! Treat Life as a game and Play it til you reach your peak! this is the real me :-)
I want be the happy person full of zest that I used to be. Jaisri says Im a clown, well not many have seen this side of me. Heading for a footy match later with 9 others, well just for the experience. Tomorrow is Mr Vinnie's bday so heading to temple, yeah im going to temple, well im a changed person you know. Bought a tennis racket, now got to find someone to play with. Have to start my exercises soon, probably take up the uni membership or maybe start running at Fawkner Park.
Have decided to make certain chnages in my life. Im my normal self when Im around people. Guna and I used to dance while doing housework. Jaisri and I have our girlie sessions every week talking about anything under the sun.
Shona & Vishesh are fun people to be around with. They are my housemates. We went to temple during Krishna Jayanthi. The ambience was spine shivering and we were lucky! We were stopped when they were moving the idols and i was right in front and got first hand view. The bhajans were good, I miss the bhajans I used to attend back home.
On the whole im happy with my life. Well Im sitting here with my savings, basically taking a break from work and having the luxury of time while others are w orking their heads off. There are many out there who envy the guts I had to drop everything and make the move. Not a perfect life but Im better off than so many other people I know. Im strong and I know I can do it! Thats the spirit girl! Treat Life as a game and Play it til you reach your peak! this is the real me :-)
Friday, August 21, 2009
Pondering Again
On my bed staring at the ceiling and thinking, so many images flash across. Missing my family, friends, cousins and my little devil most of all. Received an email from mommy, "I miss you honey" was the message. Tears flow as guilt takes over, I never had time for my wonderful family. What was I so busy about, thinking back it wasnt worth being a workaholic, Ive drowned myself in work for the past 8 years and after coming here Ive realised there's nothing really much ive learnt the entire time.
Living a life of a student isnt easy. Lecturer with high expectations, assignments, missing everyone back home, adjusting to student life, PR, parents worrying about my marriage, finances running low and trying to forget the man I love is just eating into me everyday. "Its Aussie gal, relax", says my cousin online, how to when u have so many things running in your head all at one time. The many I have here have been a blessing in my life, what would I have done without them? They keep me going I should say and of course family and friends I see online give me the assurance that Im being loved and missed.
The last 2 of my cousins are getting married, younger ones I should say. March and May next year. "If you dont get married by 36, you will never", says my dad on the phone. Im here trying to battle my feelings over someone who has moved on. God what do I do? Can you please send me an angel to shadow me through this phase.
Living a life of a student isnt easy. Lecturer with high expectations, assignments, missing everyone back home, adjusting to student life, PR, parents worrying about my marriage, finances running low and trying to forget the man I love is just eating into me everyday. "Its Aussie gal, relax", says my cousin online, how to when u have so many things running in your head all at one time. The many I have here have been a blessing in my life, what would I have done without them? They keep me going I should say and of course family and friends I see online give me the assurance that Im being loved and missed.
The last 2 of my cousins are getting married, younger ones I should say. March and May next year. "If you dont get married by 36, you will never", says my dad on the phone. Im here trying to battle my feelings over someone who has moved on. God what do I do? Can you please send me an angel to shadow me through this phase.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Its been a month
A month has gona by. Ive made many new friends but I still miss some good ones back home. 2 modules for this semester, Qualitative Methods & Evaluation for Management & Development. Ros is English and her classes are very interesting, the many international and local students with diverse backgrounds and experiences make it more enriching. Classes are 2 evenings a week, 3 hrs each. Moved in last sunday to South Yarra, near the city, conveneient to school, affordable rent, lovely flatmates, what more can I ask for. Of the many places ive inspected and some offered, this was just meant to be. They have been looking for a flatmate since June apparently, some they rejected, some not too contented with certain conditions. Went for brunch yesterday with the meetup group, a cafe in St Kilda, nice brunch, nice people, nice conversations, people from all walks of life and from various countries. I was glad Reneta and jaisri dragged me there.
Still searching for my bed, table and cupboard, need to get those soon, the room is in a mess.Ive to start studying as well, heard Ros is very strict in her marking and its very difficult to score As with her, ohh well she is the director, she would have her standards, just my luck Im in 2 of her classes!
Jaisri and I headed to the city after brunch, did some shopping, she bumped into her ex and I bumped into my ex colleague. We had Vietnamese for dinner, afterchich we headed for a movie, "The Ugly Truth". Well how ironic because prior to that I bumped into V with his girlfriend. Well they looked as if they were getting it on, he seemed happy. That explains why he never replies to my emails. His Sydney chick, must be spending the weekend with him. What I dont understand though is why the need for the lies and drama with me? Why lie that he's going through shits and he's not seeing anyone? Im able to see through his lies, he thinks everyone is as dumb as he is, well I do play along sometimes and I do give him the benefit of doubt, but he lives up to my suspicions most of the time and disgusts me. People do stoop THAT low to get away from returning money, clowns why cant they just speak the truth and live with dignity? To think of all the bullshit he came up with and the justifications and defenses that he shoots, never seen a morally distorted human being like him.
Still searching for my bed, table and cupboard, need to get those soon, the room is in a mess.Ive to start studying as well, heard Ros is very strict in her marking and its very difficult to score As with her, ohh well she is the director, she would have her standards, just my luck Im in 2 of her classes!
Jaisri and I headed to the city after brunch, did some shopping, she bumped into her ex and I bumped into my ex colleague. We had Vietnamese for dinner, afterchich we headed for a movie, "The Ugly Truth". Well how ironic because prior to that I bumped into V with his girlfriend. Well they looked as if they were getting it on, he seemed happy. That explains why he never replies to my emails. His Sydney chick, must be spending the weekend with him. What I dont understand though is why the need for the lies and drama with me? Why lie that he's going through shits and he's not seeing anyone? Im able to see through his lies, he thinks everyone is as dumb as he is, well I do play along sometimes and I do give him the benefit of doubt, but he lives up to my suspicions most of the time and disgusts me. People do stoop THAT low to get away from returning money, clowns why cant they just speak the truth and live with dignity? To think of all the bullshit he came up with and the justifications and defenses that he shoots, never seen a morally distorted human being like him.
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