Little Pleasures

Each of us definitely have that one thing that brings a smile to our face or that little something that makes our day. I have my pleasures chatting with my cousins on msn, friends on fb, family on msn live and that email from HIM. The mails are probably once in a month when the dues are up or maybe not that even. It revolves around one subject, sometimes an arguement, sometimes a misunderstanding and sometimes just a reason to get a mail going. The popping of his name in my Inbox sure does bring a smile to my face but if the smile lasts depends on the click of the mouse! Maybe he has changed. Marriage does good to a man. I wish him all the happiness and sometimes I wished he knew that he was my happiness.....

Life & Its Swists & Turns

Somtimes you think you have planned it all out and life is going the way you want. Then someone somewhere decides to change something and there it goes again, your dreams, your aspirations and all your plans down the drain. I left my family, my career, my friends and basically my entire life to start life afresh in another land, seeking out for greener pastures thinking life would be better down under. This is not where I originally planned, but as I said life has its own twists and turns and here I am. The first few months were a struggle, but nothing more I could ask for, I needed a break from work and I have it, have familiar faces from home surrounding me, a comfortable place to stay, food to eat, nice flatmates and lots of time in my hands.

The one person I try to forget I havent been able to, have moved on non the less. As easy as it may sound and as hard as it is in reality, i did try, just to meet another jerk who had something up his sleeve. Wasnt too surprised nor affected and life goes on, still in search of my knight in shining armour. School doesnt start til March, another Semester, my last hurdle. Then comes decision time, stay or leave? Somthing Ive been pondering on for the last few months. I came here for a reason but the uncertainty of the future still holds. Its a little scary as funds are running low and thoughts of being away from my family forever never fails to bring a tear. Nice to have frinds around, old ones from home and new ones Ive made along the way. Comforting at times but the loneliness is never away. That itself is a fear sometimes, getting too comfortable with yourself can't be good in a long can it. Overall things are better, life is good, cant ask for more.

What the future holds isnt known to me. I treasure the present and make plans for the future. The destination is clear but the process may have its swists and turns. Someone once said I was his angel, not sure if I still am one too him but sometimes I wish I had a chance to catch a glimpse of that someone without him knowing. As crazy as i may sound but that IS the truth. Life is a game and im still playing it!