A couple of weeks ago I was asked this question by a friend. Would you marry the man who loves you or would you marry the man you love? Well it took me sometime to answer cos obviously my ans is gona be biased. She wanted an opinion as she was confused. She is dating this american who is currently working in singapore. Does love exist still? Im not sure about that but Ive given up on love cos most of the time even though its expressed by the other, somehow in the end it ends up one sided. Well it is nice as long as it lasts but after that all that stays is pain. How is it to be told by the man whom u hold so dear that ure no longer in his future plans?
Ive rejected many in my life, but this one, he's just impossible to be erased and I wonder why. Well there's nothing I can do as it looks like he's found himself another. My friend asks me, how do you bring urself to wish him well? My response to her, when u love a man anything is possible, u dont even have to think. Somehow along the way u stop fighting for the love u want and eventually settle for the love that wants you, if you dont get what u want then at least let the other who desires have u. Many come into your life, some leave footprints and there can only be one who is engraved for a lifetime. Life goes on, responsibilities continue, we meet new ones along the way, but you know your time has passed with the past......
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter"
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Its been 3 Dayz
As we were walking out of school, my friend asked me "Did you this?" I was puzzled as to wat she was referring to until she pointed to the shattered glass shelter in the walkway. "Did you try throwing stones at GOD?"
Well this girl, my buddy, my colleague, my gym mate, my best friend, wasnt in school on Mon. Finally she had picked up the courage to do what I had suggested to her. She told him exactly how she feels abt him and he reciprocated! Wasnt it that easy? Wats the point of playing the guessing game? Well what could have happened? Either he accepts or he rejects, yeah its gona be sad but seriously wouldnt she be putting a stop to her miseries once and for all? Well im partly to be blamed for her current state. She didnt want to date this guy and get into this love mess, but I made a bet with her, $50 bucks for having the guts to go out with him, she did, she liked him and was in a confusion as to his thoughts. My ex tells me he regrets not coming back to me, apparently the only thing that stopped him was his ego at that time well then, wats the point of regretting after having kids? Men!
Past 2 days ive been on gate duty for visual checks. It was more for the recent hype but since I was there, I was pulling out pupils with improper attire, coloured hair,
shoes, socks, bag check etc. I bet I'm in the students' dart list already!
It has been 3 days since I spoke to anyone at home, noone bothered to make an attempt
either. Well Im hurt and Im going to let it be. I'd probably miss them and regret my actions once im alone down under but I like it this way, at least for now.
School is as busy as ever, im still waiting for the confirmation from the uni afterwhich Ive tons of admin to settle. Well, accomodation is more or less confirmed,I can sleep peacefully tnite! I just hope there is no change of mind from the other party. Im physically & mentally exhausted and Im absolutely in no mood for anything, friends, family, relationship, job. Nothing interests me anymore, sometimes I wish Im in a COMA and detached from the entire world. God take me away please. Grant me this wish at least :@
Well this girl, my buddy, my colleague, my gym mate, my best friend, wasnt in school on Mon. Finally she had picked up the courage to do what I had suggested to her. She told him exactly how she feels abt him and he reciprocated! Wasnt it that easy? Wats the point of playing the guessing game? Well what could have happened? Either he accepts or he rejects, yeah its gona be sad but seriously wouldnt she be putting a stop to her miseries once and for all? Well im partly to be blamed for her current state. She didnt want to date this guy and get into this love mess, but I made a bet with her, $50 bucks for having the guts to go out with him, she did, she liked him and was in a confusion as to his thoughts. My ex tells me he regrets not coming back to me, apparently the only thing that stopped him was his ego at that time well then, wats the point of regretting after having kids? Men!
Past 2 days ive been on gate duty for visual checks. It was more for the recent hype but since I was there, I was pulling out pupils with improper attire, coloured hair,
shoes, socks, bag check etc. I bet I'm in the students' dart list already!
It has been 3 days since I spoke to anyone at home, noone bothered to make an attempt
either. Well Im hurt and Im going to let it be. I'd probably miss them and regret my actions once im alone down under but I like it this way, at least for now.
School is as busy as ever, im still waiting for the confirmation from the uni afterwhich Ive tons of admin to settle. Well, accomodation is more or less confirmed,I can sleep peacefully tnite! I just hope there is no change of mind from the other party. Im physically & mentally exhausted and Im absolutely in no mood for anything, friends, family, relationship, job. Nothing interests me anymore, sometimes I wish Im in a COMA and detached from the entire world. God take me away please. Grant me this wish at least :@
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