Sometimes you sit and ponder why things happen the way they do,
Why you meet certain people in your life and the things you go through,
I sit here facing the man I love, the very man whom walked away a couple of years ago in search of greener pastures elsewhere.
The very pastures that turned his life upside down and threw him to a corner,
Subjected to humiliation and yearning for peace, a life in seclusion, facing the four walls with noone for a decent conversation,
Not let to see the very child he had endured all those mental trauma for,
Today he has walked away from a wife and a newborn whom he never set eyes on,
This very man was in every vein of mine for a very long time,
Ive lied to myself and to others that he is no longer in my system,
But only to realise that he is one whom I truly love and want to grow old with,
In my mind Ive lived with him as his wife and the mother of his children.
The definition of love is to care for and feel a sense of attachment to a person,
I definitely feel an intense sense of attachment to him, maybe he is from my past,
I wonder if the feeling is mutual, or maybe its just a way he is seeking redemption,
But I know I have been there for him at the lowest times of his life,
to land a hand, lift him up, give a pat on his shoulder and tell him things will be alright, to see a smile on his face sure does brighten my day,
I havent got a clue how long this is going to last, time is running out I know,
Destiny will seperate us yet another time,
When will our paths cross I have no clue, or will it ever I am not sure too,
Dear God is this one of your games? Did you send someone else into my life just to prove to me that i have been lieing to myself all these while? The two men Ive ever loved, one you have taken away, is this seperation a permanent one too?
