looking forward to...

Ive booked my first getaway trip to Manila! Im definitely looking forward to it. Just went in, saw a promotion and booked it lol, havent done this for some time. Work doesnt seem to end, but i try to remain happy which is tough sometimes. Looking forward to the long chinese new year weekend as well. The start to the year of the dragon, how it is going to be is left to be seen.....love most of my classes. The demands on the results are there. it just gets very tiring. Have been dreaming of V, I hope he is alright. As usual he doesnt respond, screw it i cant be going after him if he cant have the courtesy to respond.Cant understand what he is trying to prove though, apart from the fact that he IS seeing someone. Not sure why i come across only jerks in my life. Sometimes its good not to know stuff, not sure if its a blessing or a curse that information keeps knocking at my door even when I dont go looking for it. DOnt know if PS is genuine. What can I expect from another Gemini. He calls me his pondanti, and dictates when he wants to marry me lol. All i had to say was i havent decided if he will be my husband hahah. S is doing a transit this weekend, its been years. Comes here just for the food. Some just dont get it when you say no, MD insists on meeting even though I refused, i didnt respond after that. Is anything coming out of any of these men, i dunt think so but the flirting works just fine right now. No commitment yeah!

First week of 2012

Hello, its been a week since I last wrote. The week was busy, but a great one. It was a 4 day work week, how nice would it be if only every week was the same :D. School was very busy, my time table seems to be packed. 7 classes this year, students seem alright this far, need to build some rapport with them. Im taking the weaker lot and the personal challenge is to get them to pass my subject for now. An abusive ADHD student, disinterested, weak and rebels I have in my classes to deal with this year. So its going to be an exciting one. Managed to keep them focused and calm this week, the many weeks to come are definitely going to be a challenge. Principal seems to be happy with my work and :"dont think about leaving, at least for a long time", is what she told me during our morning walkabouts. Hmmmm, do you think word may have gotten around that my plan is to leave service after 2 years? O level results will be out on Mon, I need to prepare the slides for my Principal and the briefing materials on what to do next for the students.

As Im writing, 'Hunk' is signing in. He has been trying to meet me for the longest time and every time I seem to be having some other plan. He was online yesterday at 3am, after his clubbing. Tells me he misses me and would be nice to hug! Told him he was drunk and needs to go to bed, and he signs off. Clowns! A physical trainer, has a nice bod thought, but sorry Im not interested. Was trying not to answer MD's call last week, a couple of smses after I answered. PS has disappeared after I told him off. He is cute and cheeky, kind of person I would consider But hell no with this one, cos its kind of obvious he is a player and he gave it away. So the comment about his girlfriend has shut him up. Good the last thing I need now is for his girlfriend to get in touch with me, Im too old for these squabbles now and I dont fight for men! And guss who contacts me, I was waiting to tell this guy off and he buzzed me in singaporelovelinks! I had to ensure it was him, so gave him my email as requested. I guess he recalled who I was. Lets see if he replies, if he does then too bad for him lol.

I think of V everyday, I realised in the manthram I am to say for 48 days, his name is in there too!, 'Raghava',the movie I watched yesterday, "Raghavan" was the name of the villain, "veera" is the name of the boyfriend in one of my favourite dramas! I want him in my world but obviously he has erased me from his. Sometimes I wake up feeling Ive had a conversation with him in my dreams, it feels very real. I havent spoke to him in a week, in fact the last I spoke was the day I left Sydney. Even on new years day, he replied to my old number when I smsed from my new one. Maybe he wanted me off from his list altogether. I always pray that he should be happy. I guess he does not want be as a part of his happy life. I guess i came into his life for a reason, to be there for him during his lowest times. Now that its over, me in his life is over too. I was a little upset when he did not make an effort to spend time with me when I was there. When he was here, I forgo my 2 days pay just to be with him, to ensure he was alright, took care of all his expenses as well. Picked him up even though I did not have a car. He didnt even offer to pick me up. You see thats the difference between him and me. He could have taken days off and brought me to some place but he didnt and Im sure it was because of some girl. I have always been his choice but never a priority, so I told myself I'll never talk to him until Im his priority. If he wants me in his life, he;ll know where to find me......

Hello 2012

Hello, hello, hello! Had agreat countdoen, got home at 5am, slept and up at 10ish, shower, pray, brekkie and some baileys time with family. I do all the time, have drinks with my family so that they dont get a rude shock with my drinking habits lol, but Im a cool drinker you know. Had beer with my beer kaki, Ragu during dinner 2 days back. 12 of us, delicious Italian. Thats our annual end of year dinner. The show at Mediacorp was great! Sat don to do some work, have less than 2 days to complete! I have t complete this year! Am looking forward to a great year ahead :P

Meet ya again!