Wake Up Girl!!!!!

What is wrong with me!!???!!! Argghhhhh..I have been feeling lifeless! Damn it! I have to get out of this depressed mode, its a damn long time to be depressed girl, get off it!! What happened to the swinging exciting single life I used to have? The many friends, parties and all the joy and laughter? I have been giving too much of my time to my job.

Note to self: Get back that life you once had, you need new single friends, get away from all those married ones and get yourself some new exciting ones pleeeassssseeeee! Remove people who do not care about you, get out there and have fun! Stop staying late at work, try not to bring work home (impossible), dont put off gym bcos of work, get a car ASAP, go for that 5km and 10 km marathon next year, learn tennis professionally.......

No More

The past few weeks have bee crazy, making me ask myself if this is really what I want. Health hasnt been very great too. Think Ive scared quite a number of them with my bad cough. My principal was taken aback, ran to take some water during the meeting. Yesterday I sounded like the patient when I visited my uncle in the hospital. It was a crazy 8hr meetings for the entire 5 days. It doesnt end there, starts tomorrow with staff taining and finance matters, staff retreat this weekend, management retreat next thurs and friday in Desaru, and off I go. I am truly looking forward to this holiday. Not that I have anything planned for this 3 weeks, its just gona be a lazying 3 weeks with some work done here and there. Have tons of things to settle before I go, like my accommodation for example. What happened to the earlier plans you may ask, ohh well, I knew I couldnt rely on him. How do you live in someone's place especially after he tells you that he does not want to live in the same house as you? Well Im not hard up that I should stay in his place. I dunt get it, if he can live with someone else why not with me right? All I asked for was company as I didnt want to come back to an empty house. I have already made it clear there is nothing else to this. I know where my emotions lie, maybe he is afraid that he may develop feelings, I do not know, but I know I am clear with mine, I have lost all feelings for everyone, no interest, no energy. Probably some lame reason he is giving.

Received a call from S, it was surprising as in the 4 years Ive known him, he has never called me before. So when I asked who it was, his response was, "You have forgotten me". This is one guy who is in love with Singapore food, travels from US to S'pore just to have some food! Can you beat that? Well he works with Delta, so I suppose he has free tickets to fly around. I would have gone to the US this Dec if not for my AU PR. Well that is next in my plan, and of course Nigeria is in the radar too. At least u know that u have reliable friends in these places who invite you to their country and also offer a place to stay and assure you that all your needs and safety will be taken care of. "Why do you worry when I am here." This statement is definitely very comforting, not that I need someone to take care of me, but at least it is comforting to know that there will be a pair of eyes watching over me. As opposed to someone who tells me, stay at my place but dont have any expectations on me.