With only ten more days to go, the treats have started coming in. Did quite abit this weekend. Met all my family members during my cousin's housewarming. D was there too. The night ended with our usual drinks and games session. Went for the pre-departure briefing by the Uni. Met 2 fellow educators who are taking a year off for their studies,unlike yours truly who has quit. Had a breakfast and a high tea appt today. A lunch appt yesterday and more dinners coming up this week. I feel like throwing up now, the food is till my neck. Took lots of pictures and will be uploading soon.
Sameer was online, saying that he missed me and the walking from his hotel to plaza sing to serangoon road, I was his tour guide, we ate so much. He loves Singapore and the food, so told him to marry a gal from here. The next day we had ice cream and we watched a break dance competition in one of the malls. We had so much fun. But there is something about this guy which isnt right. He left singapore abruptly saying his company wanted his back in LA. He had seen me online and actually explained before he left but Im pretty sure there is something else to this guy and most of the time when I feel such way, my suspisions are usually right. Well he treated me well as long as he was here, I mean a man who opens the door for you, offers to pay for your food, offers to make you a drink etc is usually hard to come by. As compared to a man who makes you pay for everything in the pretext of having only a credit card, Sameer was definitely better. Ohh by the way his name isnt even Sameer heh ;-)
He showed me pics of his family, a guys who has travelled quite abit and is taking a year off to go to Brazil and learn Spanish! I really wish I was the one in his place!
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Stories from Dad
Had time alone with my dad today as the rest stayed over at my aunt's last night. I decided to pop this question if he would miss me when Im gone. Well the answer was known of course but its always nice to hear it from the horse's mouth isnt it. Im a bit worried though, dad always looks for me if wants something done with regards to his business, with me away, he;ll have to depend on my bro for certain things.
We started talking and he was telling me about an experience he had with a stranger last week. This Indian man started a conversation with my dad by asking him if he was tamil,well I get it all the time too. Sameer even said I dont look Indian, he said I can pass off as some Spanish chick. Coming back to my story, so this man asked dad for his caste etc, dad was taken aback as here its not a norm to go into such caste details when talking to someone. So apparently when he told the caste and the sub caste that we belonged to, the Vellaler Pillai, the man also belonging to the same caste told my dad that apparently this caste is 2nd to the Brahmins in India and we should be proud of it. Dad had his own stand on caste issues so I suppose he gave the guy the his 2 cents worth.
Next were stories from his days in VanDaHorse (think I got it right). He was telling his experience as a union leader working with the Germans and British. Dad was a smart guy, good looking as well, til today and I suppose I got certain genes from him and of course not to mention his leadership traits ;-)
Then came the story about Christopher Columbus. Apparently he was asked by some Queen to go to India and look into Spices to preserve food and for trade I suppose. So Christoper Columbus set off and landed wrongly in America, there he saw men with faces painted in red, thinking he was in India, he referred to them as the Red Indians. Interesting eh, now I should start reading some history :-)
We started talking and he was telling me about an experience he had with a stranger last week. This Indian man started a conversation with my dad by asking him if he was tamil,well I get it all the time too. Sameer even said I dont look Indian, he said I can pass off as some Spanish chick. Coming back to my story, so this man asked dad for his caste etc, dad was taken aback as here its not a norm to go into such caste details when talking to someone. So apparently when he told the caste and the sub caste that we belonged to, the Vellaler Pillai, the man also belonging to the same caste told my dad that apparently this caste is 2nd to the Brahmins in India and we should be proud of it. Dad had his own stand on caste issues so I suppose he gave the guy the his 2 cents worth.
Next were stories from his days in VanDaHorse (think I got it right). He was telling his experience as a union leader working with the Germans and British. Dad was a smart guy, good looking as well, til today and I suppose I got certain genes from him and of course not to mention his leadership traits ;-)
Then came the story about Christopher Columbus. Apparently he was asked by some Queen to go to India and look into Spices to preserve food and for trade I suppose. So Christoper Columbus set off and landed wrongly in America, there he saw men with faces painted in red, thinking he was in India, he referred to them as the Red Indians. Interesting eh, now I should start reading some history :-)
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Dejavu
Had 2 miss calls this morning, was an unknown number, as I was dressing to go for the pre departure briefing, I received an sms. I didnt want to go, was all dressed up to leave, then changed my mind, read the sms, it was Sameer, he was already in town. Called him, set to meet in the evening and went online. He was online too, was qestioning me whay Im not out still, then he suggested we met up since I was dressed and all.
We met, he was a very good online friend of mine. I didnt know his name til like last week i think, i know im just hopeless, well I remembered him by his nick. I didnt even remember how he looked. He recognised me and acknowledged when we met, well even if he had walked past, I wouldnt have known, heh. He reminded me so much of V, a fairer version of V, the way he talks,walks, his height, his interest....gosh, it was almost like talking to V, its just that V has totally shut me off his life and has become so cold towards me. I was so pissed with him after the last call that Ive erased all his contacts. As Im typing this, D calls, im supposed to meet him for dinner and movie tonight. Sameer wanted to meet for dinner, so I cancelled with D. I know, Im terrible, D is nice but Sameer reminds me so much of V, am not sure if I will ever meet V again, I'm angry and hurt with what he has done and the way he has been treating me, but I know I love this man. V is busy I suppose, searching for his soulmate, well let him be, he'll never understand me :(
We met, he was a very good online friend of mine. I didnt know his name til like last week i think, i know im just hopeless, well I remembered him by his nick. I didnt even remember how he looked. He recognised me and acknowledged when we met, well even if he had walked past, I wouldnt have known, heh. He reminded me so much of V, a fairer version of V, the way he talks,walks, his height, his interest....gosh, it was almost like talking to V, its just that V has totally shut me off his life and has become so cold towards me. I was so pissed with him after the last call that Ive erased all his contacts. As Im typing this, D calls, im supposed to meet him for dinner and movie tonight. Sameer wanted to meet for dinner, so I cancelled with D. I know, Im terrible, D is nice but Sameer reminds me so much of V, am not sure if I will ever meet V again, I'm angry and hurt with what he has done and the way he has been treating me, but I know I love this man. V is busy I suppose, searching for his soulmate, well let him be, he'll never understand me :(
Friday, June 19, 2009
Another Friday down
I have 2 fridays more officially, farewell treats have started, have been eating non stop, all those pounds I shed the past months are back on I think, gosh. Havent gone to the gym since my membership empired in mid May. More to treats come, next week seems to be packed. Ive been in school past 2 days trying to clear my desk and area, its not happening, 9 yrs worth of things, in between distracted by colleagues who are back to get some work done and prepare for school re-opening. There is talk that the 1st week may be off, due to the HIN1 virus. Still waiting for directions from MOE. Im chatting with a chap from fropper.com, a married one, he asked what im looking for in fropper, threw the question back at him since he is the married one, he laughed it off. Funny people, there are so many of these social netwroking platforms nowadays, dont even know how I got into this one, must be invites from friends I suppose, I dont even keep track of these sites and these people. Last night, my cousin blurted out that she has become aloof with men nowadays. As I sat there listening to her, I could identify myself with everything she was saying. Ive become like that too, aloof, disinterested and distant. We concluded that we are just too happy with the way our lives are going and have become very comfortable with being single and probably waiting for destiny to play its part.
Met up with L two days back, he bought me food, with him food was always plenty, he probed about V, I just shrugged it off, well V was the reason I missed L's wedding in Jan 08, bcos V was in town that period. As we parted, L gave me a hug and asked me to take care of myself. L is happily married, Im happy for him.
Its amazing how when you are single, you want to be attached and at the same time, my married pals would anytime want to trade places with me. They envy my freedom and the fact that I am bold enough to drop everything and go for something else altogether. As Im clearing my things here, its slowing sinking in that there is only 2.5 weeks left, the number of people Im leaving behind to live alone in a foreign land, the bouquet on my table from R who passed away 3 yrs back, the photos of my family and friends....gosh what have I gotten myself into!
Met up with L two days back, he bought me food, with him food was always plenty, he probed about V, I just shrugged it off, well V was the reason I missed L's wedding in Jan 08, bcos V was in town that period. As we parted, L gave me a hug and asked me to take care of myself. L is happily married, Im happy for him.
Its amazing how when you are single, you want to be attached and at the same time, my married pals would anytime want to trade places with me. They envy my freedom and the fact that I am bold enough to drop everything and go for something else altogether. As Im clearing my things here, its slowing sinking in that there is only 2.5 weeks left, the number of people Im leaving behind to live alone in a foreign land, the bouquet on my table from R who passed away 3 yrs back, the photos of my family and friends....gosh what have I gotten myself into!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Toilets - Did You Know
Happy Toilet School Education Programme
Restroom Association (Singapore)
In 1519, the provincial government of Normandy, France passed a law making toilets compulsory in houses.
In 1996, President Clinton passed a tax of 6 cents per roll of toilet paper.
Sir John Harrington invented the first flush toilet for Queen Elizebeth 1 in 1596.
Toilet paper was used in China as early as A.D.875.
The average North American spends 35 mins to an hour each day in the bathroom.
Each flush of the toilet releases a plume of bacteria-laden spray, which settles on the toilet seat.
Doorknobs and handles in public restrooms are relatively bacteria-free, because metal, like porcelain, resists bacteria.
The average consumer uses 8.6 sheets of toilet paper per trip, 57 sheets a day.
London's underground toilets are among the cleanest in Europe. Custodial teams compete against each other for cleanliness.
In 12 hrs, 1 germ can multiply fast enough to become over 64 billion germs.
Only 30% of the world's population uses toilet paper.
A thousand pounds of toilet paper can be made with one cord of wood.
The average toilet is flushed 8 times a day.
Germs in human waste can pass though 10 sheets of toilet paper.
In the late 19th century, toilet paper holders had a built-in knife to cut the amount needed for use.
Joseph Gayetty invented toilet paper in 1857.
Women'spublic restrooms contain twice as many bacteria as men's public restrooms.
Urinals at Amsterdam's Schipol Airport have pictures of small insects in them to make aiming easier.
Soldiers in World War One were the first to use modern flushing toilets.
People are more afraid of getting sick from germs in public restrooms than from germs in any other place.
Each day, Americans use 4.8 billion gallons of water to flush toilets.
85% of people responding to a national survey said their home bathrooms were cleaner than their workplace bathrooms.
The toilet is set up for left-handed people; most toilets are made with the lever on the left side, and most people flush with the left hand.
Restroom Association (Singapore)
In 1519, the provincial government of Normandy, France passed a law making toilets compulsory in houses.
In 1996, President Clinton passed a tax of 6 cents per roll of toilet paper.
Sir John Harrington invented the first flush toilet for Queen Elizebeth 1 in 1596.
Toilet paper was used in China as early as A.D.875.
The average North American spends 35 mins to an hour each day in the bathroom.
Each flush of the toilet releases a plume of bacteria-laden spray, which settles on the toilet seat.
Doorknobs and handles in public restrooms are relatively bacteria-free, because metal, like porcelain, resists bacteria.
The average consumer uses 8.6 sheets of toilet paper per trip, 57 sheets a day.
London's underground toilets are among the cleanest in Europe. Custodial teams compete against each other for cleanliness.
In 12 hrs, 1 germ can multiply fast enough to become over 64 billion germs.
Only 30% of the world's population uses toilet paper.
A thousand pounds of toilet paper can be made with one cord of wood.
The average toilet is flushed 8 times a day.
Germs in human waste can pass though 10 sheets of toilet paper.
In the late 19th century, toilet paper holders had a built-in knife to cut the amount needed for use.
Joseph Gayetty invented toilet paper in 1857.
Women'spublic restrooms contain twice as many bacteria as men's public restrooms.
Urinals at Amsterdam's Schipol Airport have pictures of small insects in them to make aiming easier.
Soldiers in World War One were the first to use modern flushing toilets.
People are more afraid of getting sick from germs in public restrooms than from germs in any other place.
Each day, Americans use 4.8 billion gallons of water to flush toilets.
85% of people responding to a national survey said their home bathrooms were cleaner than their workplace bathrooms.
The toilet is set up for left-handed people; most toilets are made with the lever on the left side, and most people flush with the left hand.
Monday, June 15, 2009
Do They Know
When will you ever stop your deceit, my love;
How much more have you got up your sleeves to show;
How many have you taken with your smypathy seeking lines;
To quench your lust, under your spell, with more of your lies;
Do they know, Ohhhh do they know;
How you rip them off everythin;
How you leave them standing with nothin;
How you vanish as they cry in waiting;
Didnt your past teach you any lessons ma boy;
Didnt your ma tell you not to play with hearts dearest Gemini;
Do they know, Ohhhh do they know;
How is it you run to the phone thinking its your ma;
When darling you said noone has your number including her;
I aint stupid ma boy, I can see through all your lies;
You blame me for everythin, but try and recall;
The mail that you sent from down under when I went missing;
When will you ever have the guts to face me, my dear;
You have no dil to know your wrong and go on your knees ma man;
A person like you will never understand, love, unconditional & true;
Do they know, Ohhh do they know ma friend
How much more have you got up your sleeves to show;
How many have you taken with your smypathy seeking lines;
To quench your lust, under your spell, with more of your lies;
Do they know, Ohhhh do they know;
How you rip them off everythin;
How you leave them standing with nothin;
How you vanish as they cry in waiting;
Didnt your past teach you any lessons ma boy;
Didnt your ma tell you not to play with hearts dearest Gemini;
Do they know, Ohhhh do they know;
How is it you run to the phone thinking its your ma;
When darling you said noone has your number including her;
I aint stupid ma boy, I can see through all your lies;
You blame me for everythin, but try and recall;
The mail that you sent from down under when I went missing;
When will you ever have the guts to face me, my dear;
You have no dil to know your wrong and go on your knees ma man;
A person like you will never understand, love, unconditional & true;
Do they know, Ohhh do they know ma friend
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Dino Morea
Dino Morea is soooooooo hot! Has amazing looks and superb body any girl would die for......Im watching him on tv dance in the rain....weeee weeee
Hockey World Cup - Singapore Vs Poland
Today Singapore was playing agaisnt Poland, 4 of my ex boys and 1 current boy are in the Singapore Team. They are all grown up and so mascular. Many current and ex Northlanders were in Senkang stadium to support our former boys. Poland scored the 1st goal and my dearest godson Sabri scored Singapore its 1st goal. Poland won Singapore 2-1 in the 70th min in a penalty shootout. It was nice to see my boys after such a long time.
I remember accompaying the hockey team to Penang for Fiesta Hockey in 2003 and 2004. Then on I took an interest in the sport, supporting our players duirng matches. We have a niche in Hockey. Almost 50% of the Singapore team is made up of former Northlanders! Tomorrow Singapore is playing NZ at 730pm but I wont be able to make it for the game :(
3 days of Strategic Planning has drained my brains but was a good learn. Ive been trying to look for a place to stay and realestate.com doesnt seem to have anything withing my budget, looks like ive got to bust it, im heading to Jayshree's once I land and my cousin will pick me up after work, gd thing I have Jayshree at least, have to make my way to Ascot Vale from the airport in the morning.....I have less than a month.....havent done so many things.......its been a week and my veins in my left arm are twitching still after the drawing of blood, looks like some nerve has been disturbed, arghhhhh just what I need at this moment.....melbourne, NSEW Melbourne, Parkville, Southbank, South yarra, St Kilda are some of the areas I have in mind.....hopefully I get a condo.....i know i know im spoilt! But I love to have some luxury in life hehehe!
I remember accompaying the hockey team to Penang for Fiesta Hockey in 2003 and 2004. Then on I took an interest in the sport, supporting our players duirng matches. We have a niche in Hockey. Almost 50% of the Singapore team is made up of former Northlanders! Tomorrow Singapore is playing NZ at 730pm but I wont be able to make it for the game :(
3 days of Strategic Planning has drained my brains but was a good learn. Ive been trying to look for a place to stay and realestate.com doesnt seem to have anything withing my budget, looks like ive got to bust it, im heading to Jayshree's once I land and my cousin will pick me up after work, gd thing I have Jayshree at least, have to make my way to Ascot Vale from the airport in the morning.....I have less than a month.....havent done so many things.......its been a week and my veins in my left arm are twitching still after the drawing of blood, looks like some nerve has been disturbed, arghhhhh just what I need at this moment.....melbourne, NSEW Melbourne, Parkville, Southbank, South yarra, St Kilda are some of the areas I have in mind.....hopefully I get a condo.....i know i know im spoilt! But I love to have some luxury in life hehehe!
Monday, June 8, 2009
I Miss You
This is something I found while clearing, thought I'll park it here before I throw the slip away...appropraite at this point in my life as well......a good 17 yrs Ive had it for....I think I took it off a card...cant remember the author...
I Miss You
I know we have said our goodbyes and I know we have gone our seperate ways,
but I stillmiss you.
I wish people were like chalkboards and we could wash our memories clean,
but we're not and we can't.
Yet despite the anger I feel sometimes, I remember how we smiled and laughed,
and how you held my heart in your hands.
I remember the tears and fights and how I took my heart back, bruised & witted,
but still somehow I miss you and I just wanted you to know that.....
I Miss You
I know we have said our goodbyes and I know we have gone our seperate ways,
but I stillmiss you.
I wish people were like chalkboards and we could wash our memories clean,
but we're not and we can't.
Yet despite the anger I feel sometimes, I remember how we smiled and laughed,
and how you held my heart in your hands.
I remember the tears and fights and how I took my heart back, bruised & witted,
but still somehow I miss you and I just wanted you to know that.....
The Lemming Dilemma
Another weekend has passed, the end of the 1st week of the school holidays, 3 more weeks and school starts, did all my packing, have 6 boxes, will send out tomorrow, years of collected items now in the bin, im finally seated to do some reading and prepare for the next 3 days of strategic planning!
Principal gave the heads some homework for the weekend, to read "The Lemming Dilemma" by David Hutchens,ive completed mine,it helps that im taking the public transport nowadays,cos I do my readings while travelling. This book is simple yet thought provoking. Its about living with a purpose and leading with a vision. This book explores the principles of personal mastery at an individual level. The story is about Emmy who wakes up to her own purpose and vision and also inspires other lemmings to wake up to their purpose. The answers to lives meaning can only be found within, it is impossible for someone else to tell you your purpose. Every organisation has their vision and mission statement. This is later cascaded down to every employee so that their own vision and mission is in line with the company's and everyone is working towards a common purpose. Its definitely easier to follow the herd than to stop, think, know what you want, get out of your comfort zone and make that change. What is the difference between purpose and vision? Purpose I would say is more general and address on the whys of existance, whereas vision is more specific and addresses on the whats of creation.
Principal gave the heads some homework for the weekend, to read "The Lemming Dilemma" by David Hutchens,ive completed mine,it helps that im taking the public transport nowadays,cos I do my readings while travelling. This book is simple yet thought provoking. Its about living with a purpose and leading with a vision. This book explores the principles of personal mastery at an individual level. The story is about Emmy who wakes up to her own purpose and vision and also inspires other lemmings to wake up to their purpose. The answers to lives meaning can only be found within, it is impossible for someone else to tell you your purpose. Every organisation has their vision and mission statement. This is later cascaded down to every employee so that their own vision and mission is in line with the company's and everyone is working towards a common purpose. Its definitely easier to follow the herd than to stop, think, know what you want, get out of your comfort zone and make that change. What is the difference between purpose and vision? Purpose I would say is more general and address on the whys of existance, whereas vision is more specific and addresses on the whats of creation.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Pressure & Scuba Diving
Pressure is one of the physics topics for GCE O Level, sometimes the experiences you have gained in other areas is used in the classroom to make the teaching of physics more interesting. One such time was during the topic on pressure where my scuba diving experience and the theories learnt were used to embrace the topic.
Pressure is defined as force per unit area and is also expressed in PSI (Pounds per square inch), bar and atmospheres (ATM). We all know that pressure increases as you descend and decreases as you go higher. Have you wondered why dams have a larger base area (built slanted with a thicker base) and boiling takes a longer time at the peak of a mountain?
In diving, the surrounding pressure refers to the sum of air pressure and water pressure. At sea level the atmospheric pressure is about 1 bar (14.7 psi). This is the measure of the downward force on an imaginary 1 inch (2.5cm or 25mm) square colum from the top of the atmosphere to sea level (96km or 60 miles). As we know that water is denser than air, pressure increases when a diver enters the water and goes deeper, thus he experiences discomfort while entering and popping of the ears while ascending.
Our body comprises of 70% water that cannot be compressed but we have parts in our body that contains gases (sinuses, middle ears and lungs). When a diver enters the water, at 10m, where the body is under 1 atmosphiric pressure, Boyle's Law (by physicist Robert Boyle) takes place. As the depth increases to 10m, the pressure increases the the volume of your lung decreases by half. In order for a diver not to experience the squeeze (discomfort), he has to equalize his ears as he descends, this ensures that the pressure inside of the air spaces is equal to the pressure outside of the air spaces. Our eardrum is the wall between water and air. When the water pressure pushing on the outside of the eardrum is greater the the air presure from the inside, the diver experiences discomfort. That is why pinch shut our nose and descend as we blow gently into our nose. If halfway through there's any discomfort, just flip your legs, ascend to a comfortable depth, eaqualise then descend. I remember during the 3rd dive I couldnt get rid of the discomfort and had to stop descending. The discomfort lasted more than a week after I arrived in Singapore.
Pressure is defined as force per unit area and is also expressed in PSI (Pounds per square inch), bar and atmospheres (ATM). We all know that pressure increases as you descend and decreases as you go higher. Have you wondered why dams have a larger base area (built slanted with a thicker base) and boiling takes a longer time at the peak of a mountain?
In diving, the surrounding pressure refers to the sum of air pressure and water pressure. At sea level the atmospheric pressure is about 1 bar (14.7 psi). This is the measure of the downward force on an imaginary 1 inch (2.5cm or 25mm) square colum from the top of the atmosphere to sea level (96km or 60 miles). As we know that water is denser than air, pressure increases when a diver enters the water and goes deeper, thus he experiences discomfort while entering and popping of the ears while ascending.
Our body comprises of 70% water that cannot be compressed but we have parts in our body that contains gases (sinuses, middle ears and lungs). When a diver enters the water, at 10m, where the body is under 1 atmosphiric pressure, Boyle's Law (by physicist Robert Boyle) takes place. As the depth increases to 10m, the pressure increases the the volume of your lung decreases by half. In order for a diver not to experience the squeeze (discomfort), he has to equalize his ears as he descends, this ensures that the pressure inside of the air spaces is equal to the pressure outside of the air spaces. Our eardrum is the wall between water and air. When the water pressure pushing on the outside of the eardrum is greater the the air presure from the inside, the diver experiences discomfort. That is why pinch shut our nose and descend as we blow gently into our nose. If halfway through there's any discomfort, just flip your legs, ascend to a comfortable depth, eaqualise then descend. I remember during the 3rd dive I couldnt get rid of the discomfort and had to stop descending. The discomfort lasted more than a week after I arrived in Singapore.
Friday, June 5, 2009
My Purpose
In my line of work, I do deal alot with external agencies and I should say meeting these people and working with them for the various programs for the youths in my school is demanding yet very fulfilling. I have had opportunities to meet ministers, work with personnel from other ministries and change the lives of youths under my charge. But by profession Im still a teacher. My classroom is my playground where physics comes alive! My Principal couldnt agree less when I asked him for some advise on whether I should do specialisation or a general masters degree in education. His advice for me is to go into the leadership track as he feels I have the traits of a leader (he must have been impressed with my frameworks hehe!) Judging from my personality, he says I'll be very bored if I do a specialisation. I do get bored easily and I need change, that should explain why im packing up and still single! I enjoy every bit of my freedom! Many of my friends talk about kids, diapers, cooking etc and me on the other hand am planning for a diving trip and dropping everything and re-starting life in a foreign land....This is me for you!
I thank many people along the way for who I am today. Ive worked with great leaders and the many falls I had were a step closer to success. Success is in the eye of the beholder to me. To each success is measured in different ways.
The book given by principal to be read by Monday and discused during SEC is simple yet makes you think.
I thank many people along the way for who I am today. Ive worked with great leaders and the many falls I had were a step closer to success. Success is in the eye of the beholder to me. To each success is measured in different ways.
The book given by principal to be read by Monday and discused during SEC is simple yet makes you think.
Dads for Life
Dads for life is a national fathers movement headed by MCYS (Ministry of Community & Youth Services). We have a high number of pupils in my school coming from a single parent background and in most cases its the mother of the child in the picture. Researches have been done on how the quality of a father-child ralationship, the amount of time spent togther and the parenting style impacts a child in terms of cognitive , socio-emotional and At-risk behaviours. Needless to say, when there is positive father involvement in a child's life, the child has a higher IQ, higher linguistic ability, better academic achievement, better social emotional competencies (better ability to cope, secure attachments, moral maturity,rpo-social behaviour) and lesser at-risk behaviours (delinquencies, theft, substance abuse, truancy).
Some Findings
In UK, even controlling for mother involvement, father involvement at age 7 was found to be significantly associated with educational attainment at age 20 (Flouri 2005).
US Department of Education study found that children are 43% more likely to earn mostly As and 33% less likely to repeat a grade (Nord & West, 2001).
In Singapore, Dr Ong Ai Choo (2000) found that good fathering was associated with adolescents’ positive school engagement and higher academic achievement.
AT the same time studies have also shown that children exhibited more conduct problems when their parents engaged in anti-social behaviours and were more aggressive and delinquent when subjected to harsh parenting techniques.
In my life my dad was always there for me. I should thank him for the leadership traits, practical mind, the strength and the values he has instilled in me. I know he favours me over my brother anytime and its very evident sometimes. Im the the gem in daddy's eyes and not to mention that im daddy's little (far from that ;)) girl! I know my dad is proud of who I am and my achievements so far but at the same time ive also subjected him to many disappointments when it comes to relationships. But I knew he loved me when he gave in to my happiness and silently backed me up when the men he rejected turned out to be the jerks he expected of them. I still hold the guilt in me for hiding the truth to protect this jerks. Ive been daddy's 'secretary' all these while, collecting rents for him, writing up business agreements, renewing business licences etc. I know he is going to be lost without me and me without him.
Some Findings
In UK, even controlling for mother involvement, father involvement at age 7 was found to be significantly associated with educational attainment at age 20 (Flouri 2005).
US Department of Education study found that children are 43% more likely to earn mostly As and 33% less likely to repeat a grade (Nord & West, 2001).
In Singapore, Dr Ong Ai Choo (2000) found that good fathering was associated with adolescents’ positive school engagement and higher academic achievement.
AT the same time studies have also shown that children exhibited more conduct problems when their parents engaged in anti-social behaviours and were more aggressive and delinquent when subjected to harsh parenting techniques.
In my life my dad was always there for me. I should thank him for the leadership traits, practical mind, the strength and the values he has instilled in me. I know he favours me over my brother anytime and its very evident sometimes. Im the the gem in daddy's eyes and not to mention that im daddy's little (far from that ;)) girl! I know my dad is proud of who I am and my achievements so far but at the same time ive also subjected him to many disappointments when it comes to relationships. But I knew he loved me when he gave in to my happiness and silently backed me up when the men he rejected turned out to be the jerks he expected of them. I still hold the guilt in me for hiding the truth to protect this jerks. Ive been daddy's 'secretary' all these while, collecting rents for him, writing up business agreements, renewing business licences etc. I know he is going to be lost without me and me without him.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Im closing the chapter finally and Im happy about it
The day started with a sense of relief, realised nothing shatters me anymore, good isnt it ;) Received a mail, surprised at the time it was sent, nothing surprising about the reply, an expected one. Loads of work to do but my mind is clear. Finalised my tickets yesterday, sent an email to all my family and friends, received a couple of replies. Nice to know I'll be missed. Sometimes I wonder if Ive made the wrong choice, maybe I should have applied for the UK, ha who knows maybe i'll meet someone from the UK in Oz, probably thats why my PR agents keep disappearing!
Had a long chat with M last night. He was on his way home from work, stopped his vehicle to give me a call. He is happy that im going for my dreams finally. Yesterday's conversation made me realise that he cared alot about me, it was a nice feel to know someone genuinly cares about you. The first thing im gona do when I land is to find an open speace and scream, something Ive been wanting to do for a long time. Like what M told me, Im going to leave everything behind, forget my past and start afresh. Im excited to meet Jayshree and my cousin. We always had our gal fun! Ravin will be joining us soon as well, the gundooo who was trying very hard to convince me to go to OZ cos he was going there! It wasnt because of him that im there, I was just procastinating on my UK application!!!!!
Im closing my past finally, everything deleted from my mailbox & hp. Some things are just not worth my time and effort but it more for a satisfation that I gave a shot and the assurance that i was right about my decision. My best friend was right, If I had gotten a "yes", I would have thought hard and eventually rejected it for practical reasons. I was split into a third of a fraction wanting and the rest not. I had to do it so that the "what ifs" dont kill me later! The sense of relief is amazing......
Aishah from the gym called to ask if I was free yesterday. My membership had expired. I have about 5 weeks and Ive found an alternative, so rejected her offer. Its going to be at my cousin's frm this week. Pool, sauna, tennis and gym. I was packing my tennis and volley ball, my dad was standing there giving me that "I cant belief you look!"
Had a long chat with M last night. He was on his way home from work, stopped his vehicle to give me a call. He is happy that im going for my dreams finally. Yesterday's conversation made me realise that he cared alot about me, it was a nice feel to know someone genuinly cares about you. The first thing im gona do when I land is to find an open speace and scream, something Ive been wanting to do for a long time. Like what M told me, Im going to leave everything behind, forget my past and start afresh. Im excited to meet Jayshree and my cousin. We always had our gal fun! Ravin will be joining us soon as well, the gundooo who was trying very hard to convince me to go to OZ cos he was going there! It wasnt because of him that im there, I was just procastinating on my UK application!!!!!
Im closing my past finally, everything deleted from my mailbox & hp. Some things are just not worth my time and effort but it more for a satisfation that I gave a shot and the assurance that i was right about my decision. My best friend was right, If I had gotten a "yes", I would have thought hard and eventually rejected it for practical reasons. I was split into a third of a fraction wanting and the rest not. I had to do it so that the "what ifs" dont kill me later! The sense of relief is amazing......
Aishah from the gym called to ask if I was free yesterday. My membership had expired. I have about 5 weeks and Ive found an alternative, so rejected her offer. Its going to be at my cousin's frm this week. Pool, sauna, tennis and gym. I was packing my tennis and volley ball, my dad was standing there giving me that "I cant belief you look!"
Monday, June 1, 2009
I Am Dead & Living
I am dead and living, the living dead they call me,
You have already killed me with your silence, actions and words,
There's nothing more in me that is left for you to take,
My soul has long been gone to give any chase,
So dunt you worry your gals are very safe,
What you see is just the shell, with tears on its lifeless face,
In the streets we may pass, dont be surprised
If this souless shell looks through while walking past,
Dont ever cry for me, I am sure you wont,
Nothing of you was ever meant for me, you never let it mean
Let me be, this living dead wants to walk alone.....
You have already killed me with your silence, actions and words,
There's nothing more in me that is left for you to take,
My soul has long been gone to give any chase,
So dunt you worry your gals are very safe,
What you see is just the shell, with tears on its lifeless face,
In the streets we may pass, dont be surprised
If this souless shell looks through while walking past,
Dont ever cry for me, I am sure you wont,
Nothing of you was ever meant for me, you never let it mean
Let me be, this living dead wants to walk alone.....
What else is in store
Didnt like what I heard today....I dunno what else there is in store....heart feels heavy.....need some time alone with my fag....when will I ever get a break from my miseries...im giving up on life....
Im not sure what D meant on Sat, 'No matter where u go I wunt let u go'...I brushed it off with my usual laughter......i dunt care....just leave me alone....just wana be away from everyone....got the add of the tattoo artist finally.....maybe this pain is better than the one im already experiencing
Im not sure what D meant on Sat, 'No matter where u go I wunt let u go'...I brushed it off with my usual laughter......i dunt care....just leave me alone....just wana be away from everyone....got the add of the tattoo artist finally.....maybe this pain is better than the one im already experiencing
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