Dejavu

Had 2 miss calls this morning, was an unknown number, as I was dressing to go for the pre departure briefing, I received an sms. I didnt want to go, was all dressed up to leave, then changed my mind, read the sms, it was Sameer, he was already in town. Called him, set to meet in the evening and went online. He was online too, was qestioning me whay Im not out still, then he suggested we met up since I was dressed and all.

We met, he was a very good online friend of mine. I didnt know his name til like last week i think, i know im just hopeless, well I remembered him by his nick. I didnt even remember how he looked. He recognised me and acknowledged when we met, well even if he had walked past, I wouldnt have known, heh. He reminded me so much of V, a fairer version of V, the way he talks,walks, his height, his interest....gosh, it was almost like talking to V, its just that V has totally shut me off his life and has become so cold towards me. I was so pissed with him after the last call that Ive erased all his contacts. As Im typing this, D calls, im supposed to meet him for dinner and movie tonight. Sameer wanted to meet for dinner, so I cancelled with D. I know, Im terrible, D is nice but Sameer reminds me so much of V, am not sure if I will ever meet V again, I'm angry and hurt with what he has done and the way he has been treating me, but I know I love this man. V is busy I suppose, searching for his soulmate, well let him be, he'll never understand me :(