Friends and family have had a fair share of my disappearances and re-appearances the past few years, all too familiar with my aburupt "Guys I wont be around for a couple of weeks, I'll see you when I return" emails and smses.
Making decisions has never been this tough in my 32 years, I'm said never to conform to the norms but this time while trying to make the 'Best' choice, I'm forced to weigh all the options available and take calculated risks. Never has leaving the country been so difficult for me.
Im stepping foot on the very city that I left two times in tears in a span of 10 years. A familiar city that I challenged myself to embrace yet another time. Im leaving my job, my family, my friends, my students and many memories of my journey of life which has shaped me to what I am today.
Its a challenge for myself to face my innermost fears and break free from them so that one day I will be able to look up into the sky and scream "I AM FINALLY HAPPY"!!!!! With nothing but my savings and a suitcase of neccessities I'll be leaving my homeland, a city in which I had my fair share of ups and downs. I have nothing awaiting me and yet it feels right somehow.
Ive asked myself many times if this is just an escape route I'm taking. Ive no answer to that like many other answes I never had and Im still seeking for. I am dropping everything and going with my heart, yea just like that. The advice from my management, friends and family have fallen into deaf years. Im leaving with absolutely nothing to hold me back. I will live, happily in the very city that made me creep into silence for a very long time! This is not a new beiginning but a continuation to the unfinished chapter in my life, Mission Triple M I call It! Ha!
Sunday, April 5, 2009
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