A Joke Gone Wrong

Truth always hurts, it hurts even more when you lose someone forever because of what you unintentionally utter at the spur of the moment. I never knew I could be capable of hurting someone so deeply. Today I knew the truth of what caused him to move away from me. Something said could be a joke to one but not to the other, especially if you are the one on the receiving end. Im sorry, I really am. You are my world and you will always remain special to me even though I know that you'll never be mine again.

People say you have to be careful of what you wish for. Everynight I go to bed wishing never to wake up the next morning. But when the sun rises I am up too. You see what people say isnt true afterall. For once I really wish it comes true. Im done with life, I really am. Ive asked god to give me a break from my miseries, a permanent one. I dont think I have the guts to do what R did, pills dont work, Ive tried. You just feel sick after that, but you are still alive. Nothing seems to be going right for me. Its not love im talking about, its life itself. I dont see a purpose in life anymore. God please take me away.