On my bed staring at the ceiling and thinking, so many images flash across. Missing my family, friends, cousins and my little devil most of all. Received an email from mommy, "I miss you honey" was the message. Tears flow as guilt takes over, I never had time for my wonderful family. What was I so busy about, thinking back it wasnt worth being a workaholic, Ive drowned myself in work for the past 8 years and after coming here Ive realised there's nothing really much ive learnt the entire time.
Living a life of a student isnt easy. Lecturer with high expectations, assignments, missing everyone back home, adjusting to student life, PR, parents worrying about my marriage, finances running low and trying to forget the man I love is just eating into me everyday. "Its Aussie gal, relax", says my cousin online, how to when u have so many things running in your head all at one time. The many I have here have been a blessing in my life, what would I have done without them? They keep me going I should say and of course family and friends I see online give me the assurance that Im being loved and missed.
The last 2 of my cousins are getting married, younger ones I should say. March and May next year. "If you dont get married by 36, you will never", says my dad on the phone. Im here trying to battle my feelings over someone who has moved on. God what do I do? Can you please send me an angel to shadow me through this phase.
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