Respect!

Today did not start out as a good one. My morning was spoilt by the comment I saw on FB. I dont get why some people would write personal comments on their timeline rather than send a personal mail. Why the need to let his friends know what is happening between us? There isnt any sense of privacy. And it puzzles me why only selective comments are left and the rest are deleted. After all that explanation all he could tel me was to choose between V, S and him! Where did that even come from? Didnt he undersatnd that S and I shared a very platonic relationship? Is having supper with someone who visited my country wrong? S was a real gentleman, we havent spoken since he left SG bcos I did not want to hurt him further. I was taken aback when he asked me to marry him. I apologisd to him if I had given him that thoughts. He said I am a nice person and he would like to marry me. He was willing to move to SG and work. Ive known him since mid 2008. We started off by bitching about shaadi.com. Our friendship was very platonic and he has always been telling me that he never wants to get married. I call him my terrorist, cos initially there were times he would just disappear from me abrubtly. He has never disrespected me. His last message to me "marry someone and start a family". His love for food and the hot weather brings him to singapore on a transit. A nice soul but I did not see hi that way. The relationship with V ended in a year but I have always cared about him and I was hanging on to him for a very long time. V has moved on, and so after a long time I let go of him and accepted PS into my life. There is something about him that did attract me even though he has disrespected me countless times. Noone has disrespected me as much as he has. Or should I say noone has ever disrespected me. I forgave him for the things he said to me and took him for wat he is. But what happened today got me thinking, "if you think ive decided on you, you are wrong", "have you kissed anyone since Dec?", How is a man able to disrespect you to his extent? A real MCP, I didnt like the way he asked me "are you tight there, how many partners did u have, how many did u sleep with?" These people will never utter such words to their own country women, bloody hypocrites! How is it possible to respect someone who disrespects you? Who mentally tortures you with the same questions over and over again, someone who doesnt trust you, doesnt respect your friendship with men, doesnt respect your mother, and your female friends? I think its a norm in the western culture he lives in to fantacise about someone else' mother! Wait til someone else does the same with the women in his family! People like him need to clear their bloody perverted heads before they start judging others. I should have known better, stupid me. How could I let someone disrespect me to this extent? He keep harping on the fact that he 'found out' something, WTF?!? What is there to find out when these people were just friends and are no longer in my life? I committed myself to this man for the past 3 months only to realise that there isnt any commitment from him. Im just 'another one' one in his list. Noone is asking for love or marriage but wouldnt you at least give your 100% to this person u r dating? I did and I am NOT going to feel guilty or take blame for his accusations! He can go and fuck himself fr all I care! I rather be single, at least I know the people around me respect me.