Simply Amazing

It was the National Day long weekend, concert was over and the 5 of us left for Nirwana Resort, Mayang Sari Villas. It was just simply awesome but I must say Bintan it very expensive too. I spent almost $450 for a day. We had a private pool, the bikini babes had a great time in the pool, peaceful SPA massage, scrub and mask, delicious seafood dinner and we ended the night with strawberry barcardi. I thought it was pretty short but it was truly enjoyable and I must say I got to know the girls a little better.

Was looking at some property, thinking of moving out and living on my own. Im eligible to buy my own place now, but the sad bit is that Im not eligible for the CPF fund or HDB Homeloan because of my payscale! And I cant buy an EC because Im single! What crap right? What do people like mw do then? Buy a private condo? But the prices are up the roof...geez....Looks like Im going to remian single, so I thought I might as well get my own place and move out, so the target is Dec/Jan, I shall start working on it from now.

This week has been reconnecting time with people from my past, some through SMS, and one over coffee. I havent heard from the one that truly matters, missing in action as usual. Must be busy with his babes, anyway I was never his priority, so I should know him better. Dint answer my call today, so I suppose he is with one of his gals. PS called today, I should say I was surprised, It been over a month. What was more surprising is that he passed the phone to his mother, not giving me any reaction time. His parents landed in Canada yesterday. Nice lady, sounds quite down to earth, spoke as if she has known me for ages, this is the first Ive spoken to her. I dont know how my tamil was though. PS asked if I thought of him over this month, I was honest with him, Ive lost it for him. Its over, It never started to begin with. Im beginning to think that relationships are a no no for me. Im fated to be alone I suppose. Let it be then. One colleage during our trip revealed that the impression she has of me is that I am wild. Maybe I am, but its my profession and my bringing up that is keeing me grounded. I am a rebel in my own skin. I love the way I am, and i know my friends and family love me the way I am, but will I find a man who will love me unconditionally? I should say, there are no such man, and I have given up hope certainly.