Thursday, October 8, 2009

Dear God....

I met DR when I was back, he didnt seem his usual self. He left the party earlier citing something else, but later I learnt i was the reason he left. He is asking for a heart which isnt ready to accept someone else. Call me is what I heard last from him.

AM came into my life as a happy pill. Said he would love me if I did. But how could he when he already had 2 in his plate I asked him. He was angry and said he wasn't kidding. I cant share and my ex is in every vein of mine I told him. Text me when you get back down under is what I heard last from him.

SK came into my life sometime back. We were friends and still are. What do you want from me he asks, I said nothing is what I want. He said he liked me and would like to take it further if he wasnt in California. Geography is one and religion the other, both he and I know this isnt going to happen but I was surprised he felt that way and brought it up.

M talks as if he owns me, he probes about my ex and gets very jealous about him. He offered me an expense paid trip to sydney, I declined and he said he will come to my territory to spend some time with me. He was persistent and getting possesive. I just barred him a week ago and he doesnt have a clue I suppose.

V is every vein of mine. Im supposed to hate him and I did try very hard. I just cant and Im unable to move on. God why do I still love and care for the man who has hurt me so much? Will I ever get an answer god? I miss him God and I still cry over him. Will you please send someone to take over his place.....I cant take this anymore

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