S was back from Nigeria. Bought me a pearl bracelet, raw unpolished ones. They aren't rounded like those commercial ones you find in department stores. Sweet of him to get me a gift from the land he went to seek new pastures. I always tease him with the girls there. Wonder how he works with the bums and the boobs staring at him, lol. Its the thought that counts. Someone you hardly know goes through the trouble of getting you a gift and calling the moment he touches down. have been doing lot of thinking, reflecting on my past. Health isnt that great, a letter from the hospital. Hmmm sometimes you ask yourself why you live, then another day you get up and tell yourself, you will embrace life with all your will. God please be with me.

Someone said he will send me an email, well I should say I was anticipating a possible cure. Sometimes I wonder why he does that. The sms probably wasnt meant for me in the first place. How stupid of me to belief and trust him?!? Why should I trust someone who time and again has lied to me and hurt me because of another woman? Im pretty sure his disappearance has got something to do my sms. He probably is shocked that I am going over to Syd after all his attempts to deter me. Im sure he didnt expect me to make this decision. I better book the tics and the hotel soon, the price is crazyyyyy!